I’m not the same.

I’m not the same.

I remember being so happy. Oblivious to the bad things that happen. I miss the person I was in this picture and for a year now I’ve been trying to find my way back to her… But maybe I’m not supposed to.

The grief from losing a child changed me. It changed me as a person, a mom, a wife, a friend.

Grief can suck the life out of you.

A year later and I’m still not the same person I was in these pictures. But I think that’s ok. My heart is broken and my family is incomplete, but I’m finding my way back. I look at my daughters, my husband, my big twin belly holding two precious boys and I feel so blessed. I can’t bring my daughter back but I trust God. I lean on him everyday.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
lean not on your own understanding,
in all ways acknowledge him and he shall direct your path.”
Proverbs 3:5-6